Another Year Older.

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Another year older, another year wiser. Right? Maybe! Anyways, it's my 30th birthday today! 

To be honest, I kind of have mixed feelings about today. I love birthday's (and presents!), but I am not so keen on the big three-zero. The past few days leading up to today has been bit of a roller coaster of emotions. I am pretty sure I have been cranky more times than I would like to admit. I'm not sure why.  

+ I would have loved to have a big sha-bang with friends and family to celebrate this milestone, but it didn't happen (and I seriously doubt it will happen). Last weekend was my boyfriend's brother's birthday and there was a big party / surprise for him. This coming weekend is basically filled with many Christmas festivites. Am I disappointed? Yes, a little. But I'm not surprised because this generally is what happens every year. It is what it is..

+ Along with turning thirty, I am really thinking twice about my life. What I have / haven't accomplished. Honestly, I thought by now life would be different. I'm not saying I am not happy, because I am, but I want more. I really want to be further ahead than I am now. 

My goal for this coming year is to try and step out of my comfort zone and really learn a lot more about myself, and really figure out what it is that I want to do with my life!